(Verse One: Kirk) Sometimes I scare myself. See me hanging there myself Tied the rope and kicked the chair myself with no one there to help How can you judge someone if you’ve never been there yourself? Let Me Drown. This must be how Uncle Darrell felt Must be how Robin Williams felt-- killed himself odd enough Everybody loves you but that’s still just not enough Damn… What hope is there for me then? God and I ain’t speaking Told her “let me drown,” I’m going off the deep end Raining on strippers-- though I wish that my forecast was better I don’t delude myself-- I know this shit won’t last forever Fast women. Fast feelings. Indifferent “whatevers.” I’m the real deal down to the letter but... (Bridge: Kirk) I feel like my whole life has consisted of-- Hate & love that really isn’t love I don’t know who we are, but this isn’t us Maybe just wishful thinking; baby this ships still sinking “Kirk, it’s not that deep.” (Hook: Kirk) I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” And I... I don't know why No, I don't know why I even try I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” (Verse Two: Kirk) This must be how Uncle Bob felt. Therapy does not help I don’t want to talk about shit to people that don’t give a fuck about me Have two women they don’t really know nothing about me Need some air -- tell’em that they can start to fuck without me This is for Ally from down Garnet Valley This is for my Israeli that left for school in Cali And this is still for us, tell ourselves the timings off Ask me how I’m doing, tell you “I’m ok, just kinda lost.” Our emotions stay pent up like they live on the top floor And every track I do is crack like I’m Rob Ford I know you’re working Kirk, but you could do a lot more Ask her if she loves me she says “I don’t know, I’m not sure.” (Bridge: Kirk) I guess that my whole life has consisted of-- Hate & love that really isn’t love I don’t know who we are, but this isn’t us Maybe just wishful thinking; baby this ships still sinking “Kirk, it’s not that deep.” This one’s for Patrice, man. This one’s for Debrice, man This one’s for my father and for all of us forever lost at sea, man … I’m going off the deep end I told her, I told her, I told her, I told her, I told her-- (Hook: Kirk) I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” And I... I don't know why No, I don't know why I even try I told her, “let me drown.” She said, “it’s not that deep.” (Outro: Kirk) Nananana~ Nananananana~ Nananananana~ Ayo AAO Yo...

(Hook: Kirk) Is it really so bad? Is it really so bad? I guess it is what it is till it isn't. And I don't know what it is I'm missing. But I'm a keep searching... For myself-- Somewhere out there. I’m headed nowhere fast. I’m headed nowhere fast. (Verse One: Kirk) Long story; short-- a heathen. Consort with demons. If there is a God, he’s probably Morgan Freeman. Only thing that I believe in is white girls in leggings. She said, “your flexin is just insecurities you're projecting // On everybody.” I’m flexin on everybody. But, still it’s vexing. The best thing for me would be to stop self obsessing. The best thing for her would be to stop from undressing. But that’s out of the question, and I’m without a direction... (Hook: Kirk) But is she really so bad? Is she really so bad? I guess it is what it is till it isn't. And I don't know what it is I'm missing. But I'm a keep searching... For myself-- Somewhere out there. I’m headed nowhere fast. I’m headed nowhere fast. (Verse Two: Kirk) The situation is critical. Maximize the distance so the damage is minimal. Spent some time on my own-- needed some time to recover. Wasted too much on too many insignificant others. Refuse to submit to suffer and admit that I love her. So fuck her, what did he do to deserve an indifferent mother? In the corner she drove me in came to grips with the loneliness. But it’s hard when your son is convinced that you’re Kryptonian. Damn… Why must I complicate everything? Still in the waiting room, but I swear that I’m hurrying. Still at odds with all the memories that I’m burying. “You shouldn’t be alone. Kirk, your solitude’s worrying.” Everything is different for me, you’ve been acting distant towards me. And lately, I've been thinking that music just isn't for me. Been out of touch, but do you ever stop and listen for me? That's out of the question, and I'm without a direction... (Hook: Kirk) But were we really so bad? Were we really so bad? I guess it is what it is till it isn't. And I don't know what it is I'm missing. But I'm a keep searching... For myself-- Somewhere out there. I’m headed nowhere fast. I’m headed nowhere fast. (Bridge x2: Kirk) Is it really so-- is it really so-- Is she really so-- is she really so-- Were we really so-- were we really so-- Bad? So bad? So bad? (Verse Three: Kirk) Too many conversations start with "it's not you..." Though it’s the truth, that doesn't make it any easier. And I’m still wishing upon meteors-- Nothing to lose. I sit alone; skimming through Nietzsche on my E-reader. But what’s the use? Feel as if everything is meaningless. Perfected being unhappy without seeming it. You text, “goodbye” though maybe, I’m just misreading it. Right? But that’s out of the question, and I’m without a direction... (Hook: Kirk) But am I really so bad? Am I really so bad? I guess it is what it is till it isn't. And I don't know what it is I'm missing. But I'm a keep searching... For myself-- Somewhere out there. I’m headed nowhere fast. I’m headed nowhere fast.

(Hook: Kirk) Is this everything that you thought it’d be? Everything you were feels so lost to me. You get so high and then you fall to me. Late at night I can’t hear you calling me, I gave you all of me. I need something healthier. You know that I would go through hell for ya. If I wasn’t so lost somewhere in Philadelphia. If I wasn’t so lost somewhere in Philadelphia. (Verse One: Kirk) “I won’t ask you where you’ve been. You might look like Kirk, but you’re not him. You might sing the same songs to me. But it all feels wrong to me…” You need somebody to hold you up and I need somebody to fall on. Besides cam girls from overseas and these random women I call on. Need a real friend to talk to, turns out, they’re all gone. You’re right it’s all wrong… And it’s all on me. I’m not mad, love. I’m just frustrated. Trying to figure out what’s left now; now that the lust faded. Trying to figure out what’s real now; now that the drugs faded. Subjugated by the silence to the point where I feel suffocated. You should let me drown. Don't ask me what I found out here… You’d be disappointed. My head is filled with distant choices and malicious voices. That eclipses the noise-- (Hook: Kirk) Is this everything that you thought it’d be? Everything you were feels so lost to me. You get so high and then you fall to me. Late at night I can’t hear you calling me, I gave you all of me. I need something healthier. You know that I would go through hell for ya. If I wasn’t so lost somewhere in Philadelphia. If I wasn’t so lost somewhere in Philadelphia.

(Intro: Kirk) Always hated school and all those single column lines. Now I chill with girls that do those single column lines. I’m never alone but I stay single all the time. Killing everything I swear this shit is Columbine. She keeps saying “thank God”; I tell her you’re welcome. I can’t leave the country, but she just flew in from Belgium. Ain’t even gonna hold ya, somebody should have told ya. I feel reanimated, baby this is not a persona. It’s like… (Hook: Kirk) Every time I close my eyes; I go so far away. Why is everything I feel for you... so fucking hard to say? Love, read be—tween the— lines. You say you love me between the lines. We both know better but still believe the lie. The lie. (Verse One: Kirk) Not sure if it’s poetic or pathetic. God don’t like ugly— guess that’s why everything’s aesthetic. Swear I would write you letters if I knew how to address shit. I’m losing hours... If I could have a superpower it’d be how to forget shit. I guess it’s… Fast Life till’ I see an exit. I could patent my problems; they’re of my own invention. Man I gave her the business and doubled my investment Told her “I’ll murder the pussy, and then call in forensics.” I’m just overcompensating for the lack of conversation. It’s not like we’re proper dating, I really hate complications. I really hate endings… All of this acting— this pretending. I say she’s just part-time, so she says I’m only temping. That’s ok, you have a point…We’re fencing. We’re venting. Words spoken. We’re broken. We’re mending. Guessing I’m not processing all the signals you’ve been sending. Obsessing over these lines I’m incapable of connecting. Woah... (Hook: Kirk) Every time I close my eyes; I go so far away. Why is everything I feel for you... so fucking hard to say? Love, read be—tween the— lines. You say you love me between the lines. We both know better but still believe the lie. The lie. (Verse Two: Kirk) Even though I’m lying next to you, I just can’t connect to you. “Kirk, why do you care? Why do you let this shit get to you?” Whatever I meant to you is lost-- I must sound a mess to you. I’m gonna need that heart back that I lent to you. Confide in bitches that I pay to care. I left more wreckage in my wake than Malaysian Air. Ironically say “let me drown,” while I pray for air. And reach out as far as I can just in case you’re there. Yeah, just in case you’re there. ... But you never are. And it's never safe, my demons are never far. Saw it all fall apart... Right before my eyes. She said “in my heart, you’ll be immortalized.” Even when it all turns to dust and all that’s left is us. All of my ghosts and I on a Septa Bus. Now there’s nothing left here that is connecting us. Besides these Nazca Lines… These Nazca Lines. (Hook: Kirk) Every time I close my eyes; I go so far away. Why is everything I feel for you... so fucking hard to say? Love, read be—tween the— lines. You say you love me between the lines. We both know better but still believe the lie. The lie.

(Intro: Kirk) I used to write letters to you, you don’t remember, do you? The way you’re acting now you would think I never knew you. Maybe, I didn’t… Maybe, I didn’t… We go from- Flawed lovers to perfect strangers. All those words said in anger. They're all meaningless now. It's all meaningless now. (Verse One: Kirk) That the tide got me. I’ll die, probably. Never even got to say goodbye properly. Godspeed, whoever I am… is not me. So maybe this if for the best. I’m a selfish asshole-- more or less. Heart’s broke, can’t afford to love. Headed for the depths. Can’t afford a breath. To be honest though, my only friend was Pornhub. I’m Kurt Cobain, she was my Court Love. So I courted her… Love tortured her, water boarded her. I should have warned her first. I should have warned her first. Where are you? This is the part you come back, right? Don't you see me here? Love, don't you leave me here. I don't want to drown. I don't want to drown. (Hook: Kirk x2) I know I let you down, I know I let you down. But don't let me drown, don't let me drown. Don't let me drown. (Bridge: Kirk) Maybe, one day I'll make it back to you. Maybe, one day I'll make it back to you. Maybe, one day I'll find my way home. But for now... I'm lost in this nowhere town. Trying to find myself but I don't know how. It's a long way down, it's a long way down. I got a ways away to go.... (Verse Two: Kirk) You couldn’t fathom the silence. The melancholy all the laughing disguises. I spent my whole life looking for something-- Never thinking I would happen to find it. The void is real. I have family I’m avoiding still. Write with a poison quill to kill the feels. Try to hold on to something but nothing’s real here. … Oh, you’re still here? … I feel weird. I thought you said it’s not that deep? I thought you said it’s not that deep? Now my words could never reach--